Thursday, November 12, 2009

NICK

Another night I was out at a disco with some friends where I met up with Nick. I knew him from the coast as he was related to Dan. Nick was an abalone diver and quite well off. He was tall blond and tanned. We danced the night away together and then he offered me a lift home. I really thought I liked this guy in a way that I hadn't felt for a man since Sam. So I wanted to play my cards right with this man. He came in and I made him a coffee. We sat and drank it and then he reached over and asked if he could kiss me. How thoughtful I thought!

His kisses were nothing like Marks, but they were sweet and lovely all the same. He caressed my breasts and then eventually lifted my top and pushed my bra up out of the way so he could suck the nipples. Mmmmmm. very nice.
But I didn't want Nick to think I was a bad girl. A bad girl who screwed on the first date. No. A bad girl who has sex with multiple partners, all on the same day, no.
So when Nick tried to put his hands in my pants, the answer was no, I backed away. He accepted that and continued to kiss me and feel my breasts. He asked if we could go to bed, I said no. He was ok with that and kept kissing me softly and gently, all over my face and neck. He tried again to put a hand in my pants but again I said no.
Still lots more kissing, then he came straight out and said he would love to have sex with me. I just said, not tonight. I wanted to hang on to this guy. I didn't want him thinking I was a loose woman, a bad girl who had sex with anyone who came along.

Eventually Nick had to get going. We made arrangements to meet at a BBQ that Jilly's parents were holding in a few days time.
I was sure that Nick was just being nice saying he would meet me again. I also heard that he had a girlfriend who was away at Uni. I was also sure that he would have heard about my reputation from Dan. I figured if he really did have a girlfriend who was away, then he had most likely heard about the sessions that Dan and the others had had with me and was probably just looking for a one night stand with me after meeting me at the disco.

So on the day of Jillys parents BBQ, I pretended I was not well and did not go to the BBQ. Jilly told me that Nick was there and that he asked her if I was going to be there. Perhaps I blew my chances by not turning up that day. I will never know, I did not see Nick again, but I heard that he married the girl who was at Uni.

But, it felt right to resist Nick, if I was interested in him, then I figured it would not be a good start to have sex on the first date, and if that was all he was after, then it felt right not to give in to him. What was happening to me?" Was I getting tired of living the way that I was living ? I would soon find out.....